The Millennial Homemaker

The musings of a Stay at Home Mom

Nine Fruits: Part Seven ~ Faithfulness

I have a Pinterest board called “Growing Faith.” There has never been a time in my life where I didn’t see myself lacking in faith, or that my faith was stunted in growth… until now.

Believe me, I am not trying to be a pessimist. I want to be a person of faith. I love God, I love Jesus, and I love the Bible.

With all of this love, I have noticed that I am struggling in the area of faithfulness.

There is a verse in 2 Timothy 2:13, which says,

“If we are faithless, he remains faithful, for he cannot disown himself.” (NIV)

Oh, I know I have had my share of faithlessness. Bouts of doubt. It may be recognized as a mid-life crisis to some. I have questioned so many things, such as: “Who am I? Where am I going in this life? What have I done so far to be a positive impact to others?”

Then, my dear, sweet husband tells me to get my head out of the sand.

I am learning that faithfulness is not about me. It is about putting faith in someone greater than me. Sure, I can be faithful to my family, to my husband, to my career, to my calling. But, the faithfulness that is mentioned as a Fruit of the Spirit, well, that’s the ultimate definition: to be faithful to the Creator of faith: God.

Another verse that has helped me re-learn more about faithfulness is this:

Psalm 86:11 (NIV)

 Teach me your way, Lord,
    that I may rely on your faithfulness;
give me an undivided heart,
    that I may fear your name.

There are many more that you can read, too, right here if you need encouragement.

Just as the seasons of the earth are faithful each year to arrive, so is God’s faithfulness to me.

Just as the sun rises and sets each day, so is God’s faithfulness to those who trust in Him.

Just as the ocean rushes to the shoreline over and over, so is God’s faithfulness to you, who will seek Him.

My prayer is that not only will I grow in my faithfulness, but that God’s faithfulness will reach out to you, dear reader.

The differing seasons of the same tree in my neighborhood…. beautiful resemblance of faithfulness.


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When in Doubt

If you’ve ever wondered what the other side of the fence is like, just jump on over. Hopefully, there isn’t a mean dog awaiting your arrival! You’ll find out quickly that the grass that “looks” greener is only that way because of a distant perception. Take the time to get really close and you’ll see that there are bugs, weeds, and imperfection all around.

Is it okay to wish for things that don’t “belong” to you? It’s not that you can’t have it nor pursue it, but the question remains, “should I want this?” When in doubt, meditate on it. Think about the pros and cons of wishing, having, and pursuing an item outside of your realm. Brainstorm the idea from inception to completion. Make sure it is what you truly want. When in doubt… throw it out? But, what about risk, or a leap of faith?

Another way to know for sure is to trust your second brain. This is also known as your gut. You know the phrase, “Gut Instinct”… well, it’s true. If you don’t believe me, just start to worry about something. Pretty soon you will either be sick to your stomach or have a headache… or both. Your emotions are very strong, and they can affect your digestive system and nervous system in a small matter of time.

I’ve had my share of doubts lately. I’ve been doubtful about my choice to finish a college education, and whether it is a selfish goal. I’ve questioned myself as to whether the training of my children is helping them grow to be mature and wise adults. I’ve wondered if I have damaged any relationships by my type-A personality.

And, then I have to stop… I realize that some things are out of my control, yet other things are controllable. But, does that mean that I should always doubt and be fearful? No way. These little thoughts are negative seeds that have been planted in my brain. I can be my own worst enemy.

Oh, but this is such a negative view of life. Well, maybe, but it is reality. We all have our good days, and we all have our troublesome days. The whole point is to know your limits and be prepared. The concept of doubt does not have to solely remain as the antonym of confidence. It could also be the shadowy version of caution. It is a preliminary step toward a change in direction. Sure, the chosen path may have been less than desirable, but a good dose of humility, forgiveness, and change in attitude can make that path real, rational, and resolved.

Stop worrying. Stop fretting. Stop degrading myself. Start believing. Start singing for joy. Start affirming the positive thoughts.

“For God has not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” (2 Timothy 1:7) AKJV

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